October 7, 2008

I’m an effin saint!

Man, I thought tonight would finally be the night that’d put an end to my late night blues. Dude was I wrong. After pack of my fave West Lights and a giant mug of coffee, here I am again talking nonsense.

Have you ever felt like you’ve been living behind the shadows of your past for too long? Well, I have. Still do, really. And it sucks! But you know what sucks even more? The mere fact that I don’t even know WHY. Why I’m being so stupid. Why I’m finding it hard to break free from the past and move on with my life. Maybe I’m just afraid to step out of her shadows because I wouldn’t know where to place myself if I did.

Someone please slap some sense into me.

I don’t know why I did what I did. Why did I have to be such a friggin saint? Was it out of love? Or just pure stupidity? Hmm. I’d have to go with the latter.

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